Well things are pretty good. The leaves are slowly falling as I type this. Just a few branches are starting to burst into bright star burst oranges, reds, and purples. This is my favorite time of year by far. School is ok and I am still trying to find some discipline where I study everyday or at least where I don’t just cram before a paper, test, etc. I am not working or really doing anything else so it can get aggravating with cracking the whip.
About a week and a half ago my Grandmother passed away so it has been kinda stressful with all the family in town. At least I was not strung out or anything stupid like that and I was actually able to communicate with them. Things are getting better. She was 84 and had open heart surgery about a year ago. She kept falling down and breaking bones [hip, arm, bruised her spine?]. Than she would go back into the hospital for a couple/few weeks, than into a rehabilitation center, than back home. We had nurses staying with her at her home and of course she hated that and they had to be replaced a few times. She did that cycle for 3 different falls and finally my Dad was tired of having to drive to the city to visit her all the time. So we moved her out by us in another nice rehabilitation center. She was in there for 24 hrs. when she stopped breathing at the breakfast table. Now it is the process of cleaning out her house and putting it on the market. If I was going to school in the city I would stay there but other than that there is no point other than to hold onto memories.
I am still clean and FINALLY starting to feel good consistently. It seems like it has taken years. My brain is still not working at a level that I think it should be but what’s new. It is a lazy day today. Already had school. The Bears play the Green Bay Packers tonight, hopefully they will win. I might watch the end. I have a NA meeting later today that I have been going to for a while now. It is interesting getting to know the people who stick around. Other than that I have an open schedule, big surprise. 
peace.
seedless
October 17, 2010 at 11:09 am
Well man…. it seems like I myself have come to the end of the line. Of course my DOC is and always will be Alcohol, it leads me into other things. I relapsed and it just kept getting worse.
Going to be starting some intensive therapy, possibly bupe and or naloxtrone. I have been totally clean for 48 hours. Thankfully I hadn’t had any opiates in the past two weeks so I am not in WD (alcohol withdrawal I am feeling for sure). Not sure where yet, thankfully I have very supportive parents and open minded parents.
I’m sick of this shit and cannot keep doing it and I need some outside help.
Best of luck to you and I will still be reading. Glad to hear you are in school as grad school or law school is probably my next step.
November 28, 2010 at 4:58 pm
Why Seedless, you got a thing about seedless grapes? I do!!
Difference between you and me, I’m still on the junk.
Take it easy, Peace